screwed up

well its been a hell of a week so far... yesterday was the first good day of the week... Ben and I have been fighting this week... he has all good points but i've felt like crap.... We've been fighting over my money managing issues... which isn't a secret i'm horrible with money... always buying "impulse" buys.... if you couldnt guess that's why i'm losing my house... 1) i dont know why but i can't keep a roomie... 2) i'm horrible at paying my bills on time... but we've been fighting and have finally come to a plan on how to save money and pay my bills on time... we've written out what bills are to be paid each payday and after the bills are paid and i determine how much is in my paycheck we'll be seeing how much will be in my account and how much i can save each week... if all goes as we've planned i could save up $1500 by march... that's less than 6 months... i'm not proud of myself at all... but i am proud that i'm fixing it and he's helping me fix my problem... i just wish i could be out of my mom's house sooner because she's HORRIBLE with her money and not that it's entirely her and my dad's fault but we were never taught how to manage our money and save it... although i'm extremely proud of my mom because she has seeked out help with her debt and is making plans to pay off her debt... and i've been paying a little here and a little there but it doesn't seem like much but at least i'm getting it paid off... My goal is to be out of this house by my 25th birthday and have at least 2500 saved up by my birthday... it'll help for a good down payment on our next house.. and then we can start our own family... which i'm still deciding if i want my mom to be a part of but that's another blog... I feel like a HUGE weight has been lifted off my chest and that i can actually manage everything that comes my way... I feel like for once in my life i can stand on my own two feet and take what's coming my way... I'm excited for my new money-management plan and am even more excited about the new life and family that will start once my bills are paid... Ben told me the other night that he is ready to start a family but we both have to have our money in order... it might take a few months but i'm willing to wait and i know he is willing and i can't wait to see what's on the otherside of the tunnel as cliche as that sounds... but I'll keep you filled in and am finally feeling happy and proud of myself!!!!!